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Sam Carter would never forget anything that happened that day. It was the day her life irrevocably changed. And as horrible as it all seemed to be in the middle of the adventure, it all began so innocently. She was shocked afterwards when she thought about how quickly her entire life swerved onto another road altogether than the one she had been obliviously taking until then.
It started at 0900 Saturday morning. She had already pulled apart the remains of a shielding device that SG-12 had brought back through the 'Gate the day before, anxious to see if she could figure out how such strong shields could be produced by such a tiny power source as the one used by the Androsians of PRC-774.
She had just set the last piece of the puzzling 774 device in its new resting place on the floor in front of her workdesk when her lab phone rang. Luckily, she was on the same side of her lab as the phone, so wading over to it through the parts laying scattered across her floor was much simpler than it would have been in other circumstances.
Carter, she distractedly said into the black handset
of her phone.
Hey Sam? It's Daniel, came the answering reply into
Daniel! Sam said, her voice now colored in delight as
she forgot about the device's parts she'd been studying and paid
more attention to her phone conversation.
Funny that you should ask that, he instantly
Why..? Are you stuck to the door again and need help
getting out of your office?
Daniel's voice sounded slightly peeved when he responded,
Oh, ha ha.
Sam smiled as she reminded him about that mission and device
from PRV-999 that excelled in creating very sticky situations for
all involved. Finally she stopped laughing and was able to ask,
Then what can I help you with?
Nothing like that thing from... Oh, God, I can't
remember the designation of the planet that thing was from,
I'm spending too much time with Jack, I see.
She laughed a second time at his comment, but didn't say anything
so he could go on.
Anyway, this particular device that I'm
staring at doesn't seem to be covered in some kind of strange
adhesive like that one last time... He paused, and Sam heard
the rustling of papers over the phone as he flipped through a
Daniel, Sam stopped him, finally taking pity on the
Does it have something to do with the
mind control the inhabitants of P2C-429 showed to us
Yyyyeeeeaaahhh, Daniel hesitantly said.
something along those lines.
Sam was confused.
What do you mean?
Daniel readily replied,
Well, the old man...
Tardel, Sam supplied for him.
Yeah, that Tardel guy... He told me that the mind games
they all can play... the telepathy, the mind motivation, the
levitation... all that comes from these little machines that that
Goa'uld left behind when he abandoned their planet thousands of
Yeah, that woman... Alayna I think was her name... She
told me and Teal'c the same thing when you were with Tardel in
that library... museum... She paused, unsure what kind of
building that Daniel had visited.
That thing they have,
she lamely ended.
Okay, Daniel spoke rapidly then.
Just so long as
we're on the same page.
Sam sighed. Was he ever going to get to a point? Then she
realized what she had just thought, and smiled, thinking that
Daniel wasn't the only person on base who could claim that he had
been spending too much time with a certain General of their
Daniel, go on, Sam commanded even as a grin
wormed across her face.
Daniel quickly insisted,
I'm getting to my point, really.
That machine thing that Tardel gave me for analysis right before
we left... I've translated the writing on the outside of the
container, and wondered if you wanted me to transfer it to your
lab for you so that you can take a look at it?
Wow, Sam said, dumbfounded at his thoughtfulness.
She hadn't even had to ask to see the machine first.
would be great. Then she looked at the semi-mess of the 774
device that still lay scattered across her floor in an order that
only she understood, and balked.
Uh... I was working on a
thing from PRC-774 this morning, and have the parts all over my
lab. I should really pick it all up before you drop something
new on me. When were you gonna be done with that
I'm done now, came Daniel's reply.
But I still
have to call Siler for a cart to wheel it down to you. It's not
heavy, but it is an awkward piece. He fiddled some more with
some pages before him.
Give me ten minutes... I'll be there
No problem, Sam said.
It'll give me time to clean
up my mess and put it all somewhere out of the way. She
glanced at the jumble, then around her lab, deciding that the
back area of the room might be big enough to contain all the
parts she wanted to move.
I'll see you in a few
Okay, got it. Bye.
Bye. Sam hung up the phone receiver, then stared at
the nearest pieces of her current puzzle on her floor. She
wrinkled her nose.
I wonder how that piece modifies that
one? She gazed at two pieces near her right boot, then
squatted down to examine them more closely, forgetting in twenty
seconds flat what she had promised Daniel.
Ten minutes later, Daniel was knocking on her lab doorway.
Heloooo, he called.
Down here! she yelled back as she sat playing with
three of the parts under her worktable.
I'll... um... just... Daniel pushed his glasses up
Well, I can carry it as far as that first edge of
your table, so that's where I'll put it.
Wherever, Sam answered, distracted again by what she
Daniel grabbed the machine he had been wheeling around on a
borrowed cart, and moved it off the cart to one corner of her
Okay... That should do it. Just be careful!
Don't run your hands over it or anything!
Thanks, Daniel! Sam called, still paying more
attention to the 774 parts in her hand than to what Daniel was
saying, certainly not enough to realize that what Daniel had said
didn't make sense.
See you at lunch!
1200 sharp, Daniel reminded her, thinking more about
his lunch than what he was leaving for Sam.
You know how Jack
hates it when we're late!
Unless he's the one who has to be late, she mumbled,
I promise to be there today, ready to eat blue
I'd get some for you, but I already know that Jack will
have some... See ya then! Daniel slowly wiggled the cart
around, then left the lab.
Sam poked her head out from under the table to watch him go,
then peered curiously at the 429 machine that Daniel had just
brought. It was humming in a barely audible tune as it rested so
innocently on her lab table.
Well... She glanced at her
Guess it's time to move all this to the back of the
But after her first trip to the room's back quarter, she happened to glance again at Daniel's machine, and the next thing she knew, she had begun looking at it more closely. She used a convenient rag to scoot it along the top of her lab table to rest nearer her computer, where she had the cables and wires necessary to run a metal composite. She was soon absorbed in the data displayed on her computer screen.
An hour later, Sam was surprise by the sound of her CO's
voice as he moved jauntily into her lab, as he always did, and
Hey, Carter, coming to get you for lunch... No
delays this time! he admonished, shaking a finger at her.
She was still too busy with the numbers on her screen to even
look up at him. Jack put his hands out to run along the edge of
her worktable across from her computer, and said,
That was when Sam remembered the parts strewn all over her
lab's floor, but especially on the floor right by her table. She
jerked her head up.
Oh, Sir, look out for...
Jack found the parts she was warning him about when he
tripped on the pieces scattered near her worktable. He pitched
forward, his hands already out to scrub across her work surface.
He jabbed at the 429 device in order to stop his forward momentum
at the same time she yelled,
Don't touch it! knowing about
it's reputed mind altering properties, and injudiciously grabbed
at any part of the machine she could reach to pull it away from
his questing hands. He pitched into it, anyway, just as she was
about to pull it away.
Sam felt a button shudder under her finger at the exact same instant that Jack's hand landed on the machine's other side in order to help him regain his balance. A bolt of some kind of energy arced like electricity between them for a blink of an eye before Jack bounced backwards, where he tripped again on the many individual parts, fell over the visitor stool she kept in her lab, and tumbled to the floor in an undignified heap among the 774 parts and pieces.
Sam was instantly galvanized into action.
called in a horrified tone even as she shook off the lingering
effects of whatever it had been that had split the air between
them a second ago. The oxygen in the lab still sparked a bit as
she hurried around the worktable to join him on her floor, where
he was already groaning with his head in his hands.
Ugh! Jack moaned.
What truck hit me? he asked
into his fingers.
Then Sam was beside him, crouching on the floor.
Sir! she called again, her relief that he sounded just
fine almost palpable in her voice.
Can you sit up?
Crap he thought, and Sam heard his commentary in her head. Then he groaned again. Dizzy... Then he released a stream of his breakfast onto her right knee and the floor as he tried to sit up beside her.
Oh God, Sam thought to herself. He's throwing
up... Not good. Aloud, she asked,
Did you hit
your head, Sir? I'm so sorry about all this mess...
Not your fault, Jack tried to say, but it came out
slower than he would have normally said it. Doctor, he
thought, and squeezed his eyes shut against the ceiling lights in
her lab that he was staring at.
Good idea, Sam said just before she jumped up, hit
the red alarm button on her wall, then rang the Infirmary.
Medical emergency, Lab three, level 19! How I
miss Janet at times like these!
Me, too, Jack's voice said inside her head.
A wave of sorrow then accosted Sam, so strong that she almost fell over, too, but she held on to her tenuous balance until the sensation passed. Jolinar, Sam thought. But that was an awful strong surge of her emotions.
What does Jolinar..? Jack's thoughts were interrupted by the arrival of the medical team that Sam had called for. A bunch of people wearing white coats over their uniforms bustled into the lab and scurried around him.
Doctor Brightman immediately asked Sam,
Details, Colonel, she tersely ordered as she entered the
Sam immediately fell into the military routine of responding
He tripped. We both touched the 429 machine at
the same time, then he fell backwards over the stool and landed
here on the floor. He said he was fine at first, then complained
about being dizzy...
Headache Jack thought, and Sam dutifully reported his latest complaint.
He has a headache, too.
Brightman whipped a penlight out of her coat pocket the
moment she heard Sam's comment. She flashed the light into
Jack's eyes even as she asked,
Sam tried hard to focus her thoughts on the General's condition on her floor and avoid the mess at the same time. Ironically enough, it was Jack's voice in her head that calmed her the most so that she could think. Steady, Colonel.
Sam took a deep breath when she 'heard' those words, then
He said a few things, but his voice seemed slower
than normal, and he threw up, as you can probably see...
And smell, a technician jokingly said as he assisted
Brightman in moving Jack onto the gurney that they had brought
into Sam's lab.
Jack looked like he was trying to grimace at that comment,
but it came out more as a frown that was intense enough to make
the technician mutter,
Sorry, that was out of line.
Didn't mean to scare him like that, Jack thought.
Sam glanced towards the medical technician.
right, Lieutenant. He didn't mean to look so angry.
Brightman's head came up with a start.
like you know what he's thinking, she commented. But she
didn't wait for Sam's response, but barked at her medical team,
IV, now! Vitals?
One nurse began spewing out numbers that meant nothing to Sam while a second nurse started an IV running into Jack's arm. Ow! he thought. Damn, that hurt! I hate IVs! Damn needlepushers!
Jack's comments made Sam smile. She felt the worry that was beginning to crowd through her mind at just the thought of her and Jack being able to read each other's minds abate at his slightly caustic thoughts.
Stay calm, were the words that flooded through her. She began to immediately relax as Jack was quickly wheeled out of her lab, surrounded by the people in white coats that still swarmed around him.
Caustic, Sam considered again. The General wasn't being caustic, though, just honest. You know, it's ironic, she thought as she followed them out of her lab. Jack's calming me when he's the one who's injured.
'Jack?' came the thought floating back to her as she hurried down the hall behind the medical team and their most recent patient. What happened to 'Sir?'
Sam was quickly embarrassed. Uh...
Sorry... Didn't mean to embarrass you, Jack thought back to her. Call me whatever you want.
They were in the Infirmary now, and Sam paid more attention to what the medical personnel were doing to Jack than what Jack was thinking at her. There were machines and personnel and instruments and... It was all an undulating mass of confusing parts to Sam who stood as much out of the way as she could.
General... Sir, Brightman was saying to Jack,
shining her penlight into his eyes again. Sam's heart pounded in
time with Jack's thudding head.
How do you feel now?
Jack spoke for the first time in several moments.
I'm... Quit shining that light, you stupid..! Go
away! Head hurts... so tired. He took a deep breath, trying
to relax his wildly pounding heart even as he attempted to answer
He's tired, Sam called across the Infirmary,
arresting the attention of everyone swarming around the General.
They all sent Sam a glare for just a second, and Jack took the
opportunity provided by the wandering gazes to curl up on the bed
he had been transferred to. He rested in a fetal position, his
eyes closed, his hands balled into fists under his left
Brightman reacted the minute she was again staring at him.
She rolled him back over and pulled him straight in the same
General... Can you hear me?
God, not so loud!
Sam instantly piped up,
He says he hears you just
Jack thought, Good save there, Major.
I'm a Colonel, not a Major, Sam quickly thought back at him.
You are? Jack replied, thinking. That was fast. Who promoted you this time, and how come I never heard about it?
Worry crept through Sam's mind like a fog on a river. You did, Jack... Sir... Jack.
I'm fine, Daniel, came his perplexing response. Stop worryin' so much. Do geeks always worry so much? God, you sound just like Carter.
Sam would have been even more worried, but she instead instantly felt incensed at the fact that he had labeled her a worrier.
Jack, I am Carter, she thought. Carter, the worrywart, apparently.
You are? You're not Daniel? Jack was trying to read Sam's thoughts and listen to Brightman's next question at the same time. He was having limited success.
General, do you know where you are? Brightman again
SGC, Jack mumbled, his eyes still shut.
idiot made me a 'General?'
Brightman smiled, then commented,
His sense of humor sure
seems to be intact.
But distress flooded through Sam when he didn't remember his
promotion to General even as the doctor spoke, and there was no
calming thought careening through her mind on the wake of the
feeling this time. Sam bit her lip as her eyes narrowed. She
couldn't keep so much concern to herself, though she tried.
Says he's tired... Doctor Br...
Brightman responded, but not to the beginning of Sam's
Sam felt tension arrow through her stomach. She fought down
a rising tide of panic at the doctor's soft exclamation.
What? she barked out.
What is it?
Brightman whipped her head around to face Sam again.
heard that? she asked in a fast tone.
Uh.., Sam stuttered.
Yeah. In a manner of
Crap, Brightman muttered then. Or was that Jack?
Whichever... Sam gave a ghost of a smile as panic again
engulfed her. She fought the feeling down again by saying,
Heard that, too.
Brightman sent a wan smile in return to the Colonel standing
at the other side of the Infirmary.
She's a Major came Jack's contradictory thought.
Sam suddenly snaked her hands up to cradle her head. Stop! No, this isn't right!
Brightman strode in two hasty steps over to Sam and pulled
her hands down.
Colonel! Sam didn't hear her next
comment over Jack's sleepy mental correction of Major!
... right? Brightman was again asking.
At that point, Daniel careened around the corner of the
Jack! Jack! He caught sight of Jack
lying on the Infirmary bed, and he panicked.
He's gonna be
okay, right? What the hell happened?
The noise was again swirling around Sam, causing her mind to whirl with all the sounds accosting her. She raised her hands up to cover her face again.
Jack's voice drifted over to them under the confusion.
Leave her alone... She's fine, jusssssst confuuuussseedd.
His sleepy voice turned into a mumble, and he once again rolled
to his side and curled up.
Ohhhhh, Daniel said then in a voice of doom and
gloom. He helped Brightman in yanking down Sam's arms when he
turned to her.
You didn't touch that 429 thing at the same
time that Jack touched it, did you?
Sam forced her voice out through clenched teeth,
not to touch it, not that we shouldn't touch it at the same
Daniel shot back,
Sam instantly replied,
Not! Jack called over. He still didn't bother to
open his eyes. I'll beat him... pizza... leave you alone,
he thought, then sighed, still sleepy.
Sam glared at Daniel.
He said he'll beat you with a
sticky cheese pizza if you don't leave me the hell alone!
Daniel's head whipped around to stare at Jack, all curled up
on his bed, his eyes closed, his hands balled into fists beside
his head, then back to stare at Sam.
He didn't say
anything... But you did!
Brightman held up her hands, commanding silence.
right, there's something more than the General's condition going
I'll say there is! Daniel exclaimed.
Dr. Jackson? Brightman asked.
Frustrated, Daniel gestured at both women with his hands
The 429 machine... It's right there on the casing,
in the writing..! Says 'Don't touch!'
Sam sighed in exasperation.
Like I can read writing
that's not in English!
Brightman gazed questioningly at Sam.
You can hear the
General's thoughts? Read his mind?
Sam simply nodded.
He says he's tired, she reminded.
And what was that 'Uh-oh' thing about?
Brightman blushed a flaming red.
You weren't supposed to
hear that. I said it in the General's direction, but I thought
he was unconscious at the time.
Sam felt the hazy blur that was Jack's presence in her mind
He wasn't unconscious then, but he soon will
That caught Dr. Brightman's attention again. She turned
back to stare at Jack, then at the monitors, checking his vital
Get me a shot of TPA, now! she barked.
MRI, too. Move! she yelled to her technicians.
Daniel's face took on a puzzled expression, and he mouthed
TPA? to Sam, who shrugged.
Doctor? he asked.
But Brightman ignored him. She ignored Sam. She kept her gaze trained on the monitor showing Jack's brain waves as her personnel scurried around Jack, unhooking what could be unhooked and hooking everything back up to portable monitors. The team wheeled him down to the X-ray lab as Daniel and Sam stood alone, still ignored when Dr. Brightman followed her team out in a rush and flurry of white coats.
Alone, the silence descended on Sam like a brick wall. She
immediately turned to scream,
Don't take him like that!
but the personnel were gone.
Sam instantly dissolved into tears as another sensation of
panic ripped through her.
Nooooo! she cried, only
peripherally aware of Daniel's hands on her arms.
Sam! Sam! he frantically called.
Sam took a shuddering breath, and tried to pull herself back
I'm all right, Daniel.
You don't sound all right, he commented.
That was Jack... panic... she brokenly insisted.
Teal'c suddenly jogged into the Infirmary.
Well, at least someone knows I'm a 'Colonel,' Sam
muttered under her breath, and frowned.
'O'Neill, Teal'c went on.
Where is he? I heard
an accident had befallen him...
Daniel's soothing touch moved from Sam's arms to hold back
the barreling bulk that was Teal'c on a mercy mission.
don't know yet what's going on. He looked to Sam.
As quickly and concisely as she could, Sam recounted for her friends all that had transpired in her lab and in the Infirmary. Daniel listened without asking any questions, for once, though his face became grimmer with each word she said.
Daniel again grew more and more agitated as soon as Sam
finished her spiel.
The writing... It warns that no one
should touch that machine who doesn't want to be
'Linked?' Sam repeated.
Telepathicaly connected, Daniel corrected himself.
That's what I was trying to tell you. He again wrapped
his fingers around Sam's bicep.
It's a machine that 'links
two souls already united until they become one mind.'
That's what I was trying to say!
Daniel! Sam stared at him in exasperation.
didn't you tell me this when you left it in my lab?!?
I did! Daniel retorted.
You told me about the mind thing, but not that two
shouldn't simultaneously touch it! she reminded him yet
Daniel muttered darkly, but it was too quiet for either Sam
or Teal'c to hear. Louder, he asked,
Did you and Jack touch
it at the same time?
Right when he tripped! Sam explained, her
exasperation was quickly moving into irritation by then.
What exactly happened that's so wrong with Jack,
anyway? Daniel thought to ask.
Sam groaned, and pushed her palms into her eyes.
a minute! she testily requested.
I need to do some
research on this TPA stuff that Dr. Brightman was
Okay, Daniel said, his hands up, showing his
agreement with her.
You go look. Teal'c and I will be
waiting right here for you.
Sam nodded once, then jogged out of the Infirmary without another word.
Daniel looked to Teal'c.
Did she seem..? I don't
know... off... to you?
How so, DanielJackson? Teal'c asked.
Daniel heaved a sigh then.
She sounded and acted a lot
like Jack would have in this situation, he announced.
maybe it's just me who thought that.
Teal'c's hands met behind his back.
It was not 'just
you.' Teal'c replied in a quiet voice.
Great, muttered Daniel.
* * *
Ten minutes later, they decided to wait for news about Jack
over steaming cups of coffee in the Comissary
immediately began to report. Then she hesitated. She gazed at
Daniel and Teal'c sitting across from her.
You guys aren't
going to like this, she announced on a rush of air.
Tell us anyway, Daniel ordered. He blew on his own
coffee, then took a cautious sip.
Sam's brows drew closer together in a frown. Softly, she
answered his order,
It's what they give a person during the
first few hours of a stroke.
What?! Daniel blurted.
Does that mean that's
what's wrong with Jack? Then he negated his own question.
But he's so active! He can't have a stroke! Did this come on
by him hitting his head on the floor, or..?
Sam glared him into silence.
I don't know, Daniel!
she said, worry making her sound aggravated again.
complain about hitting his head, but he did say things about
being tired, dizzy, he was already talking funny when we were in
the Infirmary, and he said that he had a headache. Those are all
classic symptoms of stroke, she informed them, her voice
little more than a whisper now.
If that's what this is...
She didn't finish her comment.
Oh God, Daniel said in a voice full of doom.
had no idea it was that bad.
We do not know anything for certain yet, Teal'c
Let us not jump our rivers before we see
That's 'cross our bridges before we come to them,'
Daniel said, now sounding tired as well.
But you're right,
Teal'c. We really have no idea what's happening.
Drink your coffee, Sam told him.
Then we can go
back to the Infirmary after we're done. Maybe Dr. Brightman will
be able to tell us more by then.
Daniel nodded, but when he looked at his coffee, the sight
of the brown liquid made him queasy for the first time in
I don't feel so good, he said, and he pushed his
cup away from him.
Sam sighed, but didn't say anything more.
* * *
Dr. Brightman heaved a breath of relief in the steadying
quiet of her office, for just a second or two of relaxation.
Then she dialed her desk phone, and waited. When she reached an
extension operator, she requested,
Again she waited a moment as she was transferred, and
another phone rang. Then, after only a brief pause, a man
responded to the summons.
Dr. David Lassom, he briskly
Brightman was relieved again that he was in his office to
take her call.
Dr. Lassom, this is Dr. Alisen Brightman. We
met at the convention on Neurology in Dallas last month,
He interrupted her.
Of course, I remember you, Dr.
Brightman! You had such sterling questions! We talked for
several hours... How may I help you today?
Brightman leaned back in her military issue chair, and
Yes... well... Dr. Lassom... I was wondering if I
can possibly ask you a few more questions this afternoon?
The enthusiastic reply came quickly.
Of course, of
course! By all means, go ahead.
I guess what I really need is your expertise,
Brightman said in a quieter voice.
I have a patient who in
the past has received multiple concussions, who's now suffering
from fatigue, headache, slurred speech, and vertigo, and his
motor responses are becoming more and more sluggish as time wears
on. I was wondering if there's any diagnosis you might possibly
attribute those symptoms to?
Lassom's reply was immediate.
Sounds like a stroke of
some kind, but I don't want to jump to conclusions too
Neither do I, Brightman replied.
But I did have
the same initial diagnosis in mind. However, I thought I would
call you and get another opinion before any more time goes
Did this person suffer a neural injury of some kind?
he inquired next, curiosity sounding loud in his voice.
Not that is known, but it's a possibility, Brightman
Inconclusive at this point.
Was TPA administered at any time?
Yes, about thirty minutes after the patient was admitted,
which was five or ten minutes after the incident...
Hmm, Lassom commented.
Fast admittance. You're
working on some military base, you said, if I remember
Brightman gave a wan smile at her phone, and only replied,
Yes, and that's all I can tell you. Besides this particular
patient doesn't seem to be responding to the TPA. Heart rate and
blood pressure are still elevated, and confusion seems to be
setting in, not to mention the tendency of the muscle tone to
freeze and become rigid when touched.
Still sounds like a stroke to me. You
said that the MRI was inconclusive?
Yes, though there are a few slightly shaded areas in the
brainstem region. I'm thinking about ordering a second MRI in
another thirty minutes, to see if there's any progression. What
I'm wondering about is if you can possibly think of any other
drug I might try administering, or something I can do that might
alleviate his symptoms, or...
Lassom sighed again.
Unfortunately, you're already doing
what should be done. Ordering a second MRI is an excellent idea,
but that will only give more information, not a cure. If
rigidity is already setting in to the muscles, and this seems to
be an event that's centered in the brainstem area, there's not
much more you can do after administering TPA. There's
experimental drugs, of course, but nothing approved by the FDA,
and almost impossible to get your hands on, especially in
That's what I thought you would say.
An unrelated neurological event seems to be interfering with the
TPA as of right now. You're the third neurologist that I've
contacted about this case, and each doctor that I've talked to
has made the same diagnosis that I originally reached. I was
just wondering if you have any suggestions or advice?
Well... Lassom hesitated.
Any family or loved
ones available? Sometimes just the presence of someone familiar
works wonders for a patient.
No family that I know of, though one person seems to be
closer than any others, and I've been keeping her nearby
You know, the fatality rate in brainstem strokes is quite
high, Lassom helpfully continued.
I can quote statistics
if you like.
No, I think I'd rather not know the
precise numbers at this point, but thanks for the offer.
A shrug sounded loud in Lassom's voice.
Once more came the sigh over the line.
Has this patient
fallen unconscious at any time during this affair?
Brightman heaved a large breath of air.
No, not yet,
though with the amount of fatigue this patient seems to be
suffering, and the vertigo...
Slurred speech, too, you said?
And mounting confusion.
None reported so far. Any advice?
Sounds like a classic case for the physiatrists and
rehabilitative medicine. I wish I could give you more advice,
but what I know might not come in handy until later... there's
several drugs that can make a big difference then, but they're
for muscle spasticity and tone. None of it will stop any event
from taking place.
Again, that's what I was afraid you would say,
Brightman said, then ground her fingers onto the eyes.
I might be able to tell you more if I can see the MRIs
for myself, but...
I'll see about sending you copies of them if it comes to
that, Brightman promised.
Thanks for your time, Dr.
Call any time, and please, keep me informed, Dr.
Brightman, Lassom requested.
I will. I may be calling you again in the near future.
Thank you. Good bye.
Lassom's concerned voice disappeared as Brightman returned the receiver to its cradle. She heaved yet another sigh, then gathered herself together enough to page SG-1 to come to the Infirmary. She didn't know what she was going to say to them yet, but she had to tell them something, and soon. Alisen Brightman took a last deep breath prior to being the dreaded bearer of bad news.
* * *
Sam Carter stared at Dr. Brightman in shock.
she asked again in incredulity.
Repeat that for me. Her
comment came out like a question more than a statement.
I talked to three different neurologists, all with the
same conclusions that I reached, and with the same advice: a
stroke of some kind, and that I should administer TPA. But there
seems to be something about this mind device machine... What
were you calling it? she asked Colonel Carter.
Sam quickly said,
It's a mental link of some kind, I
think, brought on by the energy output that I explained.
I'm not sure quite what it was, but
there's a definite elevated white blood count and a higher amount
of estrogen in his system.
Estrogen? Daniel asked in surprise.
But men are
born with more testosterone in their bodies, not
Yes, I know, Brightman immediately said.
Daniel decided that it would be best if he just moved the
And this estrogen amount... It means..?
It means... She paused.
Nothing's conclusive at this time.
Then make your best guess, Daniel sharply said.
I was hoping that you wouldn't ask
for that. She grimaced, then schooled her features into her
strongest 'medical trauma' expression.
The bad news... My
best guess is the General is suffering from a brainstem stroke
that has the potential to leave him paralyzed, if he lives, and
that's not a certainty by any means. On the other hand, there
have been huge gains made in the field of rehabilitation and drug
therapy specifically targeted at the brainstem area
A hitch sounded from Sam then, cutting into Brightman's
So what are you saying here? she asked, her
voice harsh as she tried to contain her overflowing emotions.
That he's... he's..?
I'm sorry, Colonel. Brightman's voice grew softer,
less clinically detached.
The next twenty-four hours will
tell us a great deal. So far, both MRIs that I've ordered are
unpersuasive, so there's no point in jumping to conclusions at
this point. We have to remain calm and...
But panic was again clawing at the back of Sam's throat.
You remain calm if you want to! she yelled.
there something you should be doing for him, something..?
Sam. It was the soothing voice of Daniel that cut
Dr. Brightman is the best, or she wouldn't be here
at the SGC. The fact that she knew when she needed to call back
up says a lot. Give her a break.
Carter? came a feeble thought then. Jack's voice. Or his thoughts. It felt like he was calling across a great barrier or distance, and that distance was scattering his cry. But the wave of panicked, frightened emotion that crashed into Sam's subconscious mind was not nearly as weak. You kay?
Fine, Sam automatically thought back at him, giving him the same answer she had given him for eight years. The fact that he believed her now as little as he had ever believed her... meaning, not at all... It didn't give him much of a feeling of reassurance.
Jack, I'm fine, really... Sleep Sam thought at him then, and she felt the haziness in his mind intensify as he finally let himself relax and slip into unconsciousness. Sam was amazed again - he'd been fighting the draw of oblivion because he was concerned for her, how she was coping with all this, not because of what was happening to him...
Jack was very quiet after that, and Dr. Brightman was finally able to fully brief the team and Colonel Reynolds, General O'Neill's second in command, as to what could be expected in the near future.
I'll be blunt, Brightman began the minute they were
all seated around the Briefing Room table. Sam found herself
fidgeting with a pen as the medical doctor spoke, and she was
able to appreciate the fact that she was fussing with an
inanimate object, as Jack had often fussed with things in the
past, and they were all talking about the General. The
connection between the two was ironic enough to make Sam smile...
But Dr. Brightman was continuing. She pointed to a computer
screen, which had Jack's last complete MRI images displayed.
This area here, and she circled an area in the air above
the monitor with the back of her pen. The circle concentrated at
the back of the brain, near his spine.
This is called the
brainstem. The brainstem can then be split into parts, each part
controling different bodily functions, but for our purposes here
think of the brainstem as one big motor controling
Sam immediately thought back to that time when the being they had called 'The Entity' invaded her body, then removed her consciousness into the MALP mainframe in the MALP Room before trying to destroy the entire base. General O'Neill... then Colonel O'Neill... had had to kill her body in order to stop it. It was basically a miracle that her 'essence' had been found and returned to her own body. It was more than a miracle that she was sitting here, listening to the doctor spewing out unfamiliar medical terms every other second. The similarities between her 'Entity' experience and what was happening to Jack right now was eerie; the loss of control in itself was enough to give her a major case of the creeps!
Dr. Brightman chose that moment to lower her pen from the
computer monitor in front of her, catching and holding Sam's
Now, here's a picture of a healthy
brainstem. Brightman held up what had to have been one of
her medical school textbooks with a page marked by a piece of
And as you can see, General O'Neill's brainstem is
quite a bit more darkly shaded, though it's still not as dark as
this picture... here... She flipped the book she was holding
to show another page exhibiting another brain, one obviously
diseased, one with several darkened areas.
This is what an
MRI image of a typical stroke patient looks like. She held
the book up next to the computer image.
You see? she
The General's is quite a bit lighter. My
hope is that it still looks to be lighter in color when we look
at the third MRI.
Third? Colonel Reynolds asked for clarification.
Since the first MRI was
inconclusive, I ordered another one, and that too was
inconclusive. I've since ordered a third, and it's been taken,
but the results are now being transferred onto a computer disk in
the medical lab. But that takes time, and this briefing was
scheduled to take place before the third disk was completely
ransferred. So I don't know the details yet, but if it shows
images with this same light shading of gray instead of becoming
darker gray, then we're dealing with a whole different scenario
than in a typical brainstem stroke.
Daniel piped up then, asking the same question that Sam wanted to ask before she could even get her mouth around the words. She thought the question, but then had to remember that she wasn't talking to Jack, and had to actually ask the question aloud. By the time she recalled that she had to speak aloud, Daniel had already asked her question for her. Which Daniel often did, as he liked to talk so much. Sam grinned slightly again, but kept her attention fixed this time on the briefing.
Different how? Daniel inquired.
Brightman drew a deep breath before she answered while she
pointed at the monitor.
The darker area in General O'Neill's
MRI images aren't as dark as they are in my textbook. It's my
hope... not my experience... I don't have a lot of
experience with head injuries beyond the more common
concussion, she explained.
So, it's my hope that
this area will remain a lighter shade of gray rather than move to
the darker shades you see in my textbook.
Sam swallowed her feelings of panic and managed to ask a
question herself this time.
Darker gray means more damage,
and lighter gray means less damage?
Colonel Reynolds sat forward in his chair.
you're saying is that he might not be completely paralyzed, that
some movement might still be possible?
Brightman sighed this time. Finally she admitted,
is what I'm saying, but the third MRI images might show that his
stroke... and that's what my diagnosis is at this time... his
stroke isn't as complete as it could have been. She rifled
through several pages of the General's medical report that was in
front of her.
The interesting thing about the General's case
is that there doesn't seem to be any indication of a rupture or a
blood clot in his brain. That would explain why the TPA that we
administered didn't work...
TPA? Reynolds asked, echoing her, but with confusion
in his voice.
Brightman gave a tiny smile at his lack of medical
knowledge. But then, most people knew approximately as much as
Reynolds did. They knew what they had to know, and not much
else. She explained,
TPA stands for Tissue Plasminogen
Which is..? Reynolds queried.
Clot buster drug, Daniel filled in for her.
See? he said then.
I know a few things here and there
about medicine. The he admitted,
After Sam did her
initial research into TPA, I did some more. Guess it paid
Dr. Jackson is correct. TPA is better
known as a clot busting drug, but in the General's case, as there
was no apparent clot to 'bust up,' the drug had little
Reynolds let them all silently assimilate this information
for a second, then asked,
If there was no blood clot, what
caused his stroke?
Brightman glanced over in Sam's direction. Then everyone was looking at her.
What? Sam asked in bewilderment.
I didn't have
anything to do with...
Actually, Brightman broke in on her comment to say.
I think you did.
Sam stared at her for yet another horrible, silent moment. The way Brightman was staring at her made her think that everyone had decided that she had done this to Jack on purpose. But she could never do something like this to Jack! The idea was absurd!
At the same time, she was curious to hear how the doctor
chose to explain her involvement in the incident. So she asked,
Uh... How was I involved?
Doctor Brightman then swiveled her chair back around so that
she could take them all in.
Okay, we have a series of
seemingly unrelated events that took place right before the
General's stroke that could have caused that stroke. Since he
didn't have bleeding or a clot, two of the usual causes of
similar brain injuries, that narrows down the possible causes a
Then Sam gave an incredulous grin.
Oh, you don't
think... It was clear that Brightman was now considering how
Jack had entered her lab only to trip on the 774 pieces strewn
over her lab floor, then fallen into that machine from 429, where
he and she had been 'united as one' with an arc of... something.
But none of that had been on purpose!
No way! Sam
incredulously exclaimed then.
I didn't mean to do
But it makes sense, Sam, Daniel was insisting.
The machine from 429 specifically tells its handlers not to
touch when someone else is already touching it, and then you and
Jack both touched it... accidentally... at the same time anyway.
And then there was that energy, or whatever you're calling it,
between you two. And right after that was when Jack first
started showing these weird symptoms. To end his dialogue,
Daniel lamely noted,
And Jack's so much older than you are...
That could be why it affected him and didn't affect you.
But I didn't do anything, Daniel! Sam next
The way you're talking, it's like I planned this
whole thing, and...
No, Brightman said, pausing Sam in her tirade.
That's not what we're saying. I'm saying that the energy
output that you described could very well be what caused his
stroke-like symptoms to begin with, but that any energy he was
hit with at any time would also have caused much the same
effect. She took another breath before she went on.
could have been a Zat blast, or as simple a thing as the General
plugging a power chord into an outlet incorrectly and getting
zapped... What I'm saying is that if it hadn't been the energy
from the 429 machine, it would have been something else. And
then if it had been that something else, you and he
wouldn't have this neural connection that you seem to have now,
and then we would have no idea what's happening to him if you
weren't here to tell us his thoughts, and...
Wait a minute... Colonel
Carter? he asked.
You can hear his thoughts?
Sam sat for a frozen moment as they again all looked at her.
She at last had to admit,
Yes. There seems to be some kind of
connection between us that...
But Brightman cut her off again.
That's what I'm saying.
This event would have happened eventually anyway, as far as I can
tell, but we wouldn't have had access to his thoughts as we do
now. Actually, it's incredibly lucky that you and he did touch
that machine the way that you did. At least we'll be able to
know what he's thinking through you instead of just having to
guess in the case that he loses his speech abilities. She
picked up the textbook she still had open.
And that's the
next thing I wanted to talk about. The way the brain's left
side... here... She circled an area of the image again with
the back end of her pen.
It's a bit darker than anything on
the opposite side... here... and as speech abilities are
controled on the left...
Reynolds glared at her.
Are you saying that General
O'Neill won't be able to talk?
Brightman stared back.
I'm saying that it's a distinct
The room erupted into sighs and spoken utterances of 'Oh my
God' after she made that prediction. Reynolds sighed, and ran
his hand across his chin in supreme aggravation.
said at last to Brightman.
Bottom line this for me, he
What's the worst case scenario that you can think
of in this instance?
Worst case scenario, Brightman repeated.
worst case possible, the General becomes totally paralyzed, and
doesn't move again, or he dies.
Sam felt her heart stop beating at the doctor's words, and a blanket of despair engulfed her.
But, Brightman went on, unaware of Sam's distress.
I don't think that will happen in this case.
Okay, Reynolds was saying.
Brightman went slow as she spoke.
This isn't a complete
stroke, since there is no indication of a clot or a hemorrhage...
that's a case of internal bleeding onto his brain that would
cause swelling that would in turn cause a stroke. What's
happening here is that this only appears... right now,
Right now it appears that we're dealing with
only 'half a stroke,' if you will. The General could certainly
have impaired coordination and motor skills, and he may lose his
ability to speak, but he won't become what is known in the
medical world as 'locked in'
That means no movement at all, like a patient is totally
'locked' inside his or her own body? Daniel was again
translating her medical jargon for the others in the room.
Yes, that's a good
Reynolds was humming as he continued to think.
How does he get all that half movement back, then? Is there some
kind of surgery or procedure that..?
Brightman smiled a grim gesture.
No, I'm afraid that the
only way to get back anything that is lost in this kind of
incident is for him to be rehabilitated, taught to relearn what
Reynolds again asked what Sam was having trouble voicing.
You're saying that he'll have to go through therapy, learn how
to walk again, how to talk again...
Brightman picked up that litany,
How to swallow, how to
eat, how to make coffee in the morning... Just about
Sam sat like a frigid lump in her chair once more, listening to the doctor's words, but only internalizing every other one spoken. She was busy visualizing the kind of life General O'Neill had to look forward to now, what he might be able to do in the long run. She had images of wheelchairs and other assisstive devices floating in her mind, and she knew without having to be told that Jack would hate that kind of existence. He was a man of action, not a man who would quietly become an invalid who watched TV all day long!
And what of the Air Force? Sure, he was approaching the age of his third retirement, but he still had so much to offer the Stargate program that retirement seemed like something that was far off in the future. He wouldn't like being retired anyway. He would go nuts with boredom in less than a week.
But now would he have any choice in the matter? Was he looking at a medical discharge in the near future? The ignominy that a medical discharge would seem to him would practically make his life unbearable, she knew.
Sam drew a shuddering breath, and tried hard to concentrate on what was happening around her. But she was growing more and more frantic with each passing moment. She knew that it would be best if she remained calm... she could hide her distress from the others in the room, but she could never hide her feelings from Jack, not now that he could sense everything she thought and felt the instant she thought or felt it. Her suddenly overwhelming emotions would smash into his damaged psyche, and then overwhelm him in a matter of seconds. She simply had to get control of her feelings!
Easier said than done. That tight sensation she always got just before losing her latest meal began to accost her as her thoughts continued to spin further out of control.
How can this be happening?!? she asked herself with a rising sense of hysteria. We've waited so long, done what we can to alleviate any suspicion...
Wait, what am I saying? she asked herself. Am I saying... that..?
Sam gave a start of horror as the thought of Pete ghosted across her mind, the first time she had even thought of Pete since this whole thing with the General had begun. Still feeling vague and stricken, Sam managed to consider that her engagement to Pete... She must have never subconsciously intended for it to go as far as reaching a wedding, that... Because of her feelings for Jack...
With only one strangled groan to act as a warning, Sam suddenly flew from the room, her hand over her mouth, and aimed for the nearest bathroom. She only just made it through the door, and didn't even have time to close the stall door of the handicapped restroom, the first empty stall she came to, before she lost the sandwich that Jack had made her eat at 2300 before ordering her off base the night before. She then lost her breakfast, and would have lost the coffee she'd had for lunch too, if the feel of a cool hand on the nape of her neck hadn't registered in her cloudy mind and stopped that feeling of tightness through her extreme surprise. The cool sensation felt like Janet's hand, but that was so impossible that it astonished her enough to distract her from throwing up.
Easy, Dr. Brightman was saying.
Sam did as she was told, and a few minutes later, found the energy to wash her hands and mouth in the sink along one wall of the bathroom.
Colonel Carter, Brightman asked in a hushed voice.
I know that it's none of my business, but are you
Sam nearly laughed hysterically at that question.
No! she was able to laugh and bark at the same time.
There's no chance of that!
Then why..? Brightman gave a start.
I mean, I
know that you four individuals on SG-1 are close, but you seem to
be much more upset about all that's happening to General O'Neill
than either Dr. Jackson or Teal'c. I mean, I didn't know that
the two of you were that close.
Sam smiled a bit grimly.
You mean, you think that we're
close enough that it makes sense to lose my lunch over being told
that... She couldn't go on, and stopped at what she was
This isn't the end of the world, you know, Brightman
said next as she helped Sam by handing her a towel to dry her
hands and mouth with.
Sam reached for the paper towel as she noted,
I don't see
how you can say that, but then you don't know the General like I
No, I don't, Brightman admitted.
I do know
that things may seem very bleak right now, but there is a
possibility for a complete recovery here. I've seen totally
inexplicable medical miracles happen before. There's no reason
that one can't happen right now.
Sam gave another mirthless laugh.
I was thinking the
same way earlier, but... She took a breath that calmed her
enough to stop her attempts at crying out her fear and
frustration, and said,
But if I take what I know about the
General, then stick it into the kind of life that he'll probably
have from now on... If he even lives through this... She
looked at Brightman, and sorrowfully shook her head. The tears
that she had managed to push back at the start of her statement
now started to trickle down her cheeks. She shook her head
It may seem like a medical miracle to you that he's
still alive, but to him life will be hell on Earth; it'll be
Charlie, and Netu, and Sara, and Maybourne, and Ba'al, and
leaving the team all over again, times ten. A sob tore
through her to her infinite embarrassment, and she leaned heavily
against the sink to give herself the time to compose herself
Brightman said to Sam,
I don't know who or what most of
those things you mentioned are...
Sorry, Sam then apologized.
I sometimes forget
that you've only been here a few months compared to the eight
years that we've all been here. I keep expecting you to know
about things that happened years ago.
No need to apologize, Brightman assured.
predecessor was a very close friend of yours, I believe,
Sam gave a miserable nod.
I expect that she knew a great deal
about all of you, so it's only natural that, as the CMO of the
base, you expect the same of me, she said in an understanding
so deep that it left Sam impressed, even in her spastic
But again, things will improve.
Sam was crying in earnest now.
I don't see how, she
Life spent in a wheelchair, and without the ability
to communicate or do much of anything, will...
Colonel, Brightman interrupted.
I know I
shouldn't be talking about this so soon, but I know you'll
already be thinking in terms of medical discharge, the end of
life as you and he know it, so I'll go ahead and jump right
in. She took another deep breath, and Sam did the same, then
she went on,
Life spent in a wheelchair, or with any number of
assisstive devices, may seem terrible to you or me, as if the
General no longer has anything to contribute. Then she
pierced Sam with her gaze.
But we suffer from our own learned
prejudices about life spent before, during, and after
rehabilitation. What we both have to remember is that General
O'Neill won't know what to think about himself now, either, and
he'll take his cues from us, from Dr. Jackson, from Teal'c, from
everybody either of you meet from here on out. What cues that he
does take out of those future meetings is up to us. Besides,
there's no indication that he'll spend his life in a wheelchair
at this point.
Sam gazed at the doctor with a puzzled look on her face
showing through her tears.
I'm saying that you have to remain as positive and
bright faced as possible about all this, especially since the
General can sense what you're thinking as well as vice versa. If
you think that something can't be done, then it's a lot more
likely that the General will think that he can't do it, and if he
thinks that way, so will Colonel Reynolds, and Sergeant Harriman,
and Sergeant Siler, and Lieutenant Brown on cook detail, and
I get the picture! Sam harshly interrupted. She went
on in a softer tone,
You mean that he thinks the way I think,
and then everyone else will think as he thinks,
I know that puts a lot of pressure on you, unfair
pressure, Brightman divulged.
Especially when you
probably want to curl up in a ball right now, and scream how
unfair life is. But if you really take statistics and
circumstances into account, it's a miracle already that even one
of you on SG-1 is still alive, to say nothing of the fact that
all four are still walking, talking human beings instead of
worthless lumps, stuck with breathing with the help of
ventilators. What kind of life the General has from here on out
depends a great deal on what kind of life you think he can
Sam's tears were beginning to dry up as she listened to
Brightman's soothing voice.
So it depends on me
You have to believe that this isn't the end of the
world, and as many atrocities as I know you've seen already in
eight years working as a front line team for the SGC, this can't
be as awful as it seems right now compared to that. Really, in
contrast to all those things that you mentioned earlier, there
must be at least one thing about today that can balance out the
other terrible events of all that's happened over the
There is one thing, Sam thought, an idea slipping like a slithering snake, unbidden, through her mind. I can become... his.
She disregarded the thought the second it formed in her mind, but it was already too late. She'd had that thought now, and it would stick like glue to her, whatever she attempted to do to eradicate it.
And she realized that Brightman was right. It really was a miracle that all of them had survived this long, and that they were all in one piece. And Jack was still alive, as far as she knew. That was something to be thankful for. At least as far as she was concerned.
All right, Sam said, albeit a tad reluctantly.
This might mean that I don't get the luxury of falling apart,
but when have I ever had that luxury? she rhetorically asked.
It was simple in the end, really. Jack needed her. She needed
Jack. She was already missing his voice, now that he had slipped
Okay, Sam said then.
I guess you're right. And
if now I have to learn everything there is to know about therapy,
I guess that's what I do.
Brightman smiled for the first time all day.
But what about the possibility of a medical discharge,
and what happens to him if..?
There's plenty of time to decide
on things like that later on. She took hold of Sam's arm
Let's just get through today, she suggested.
Then we can re-evaluate tomorrow.
Are you sure that you haven't been talking
to the ever-wise Teal'c lately? Sam asked, able to lightly
tease now as they made their way out of the rest-room and back to
That sounds an awful lot like something he
No, I haven't been spending time with Teal'c,
But I'm sure that there's a great deal
that I can learn from him, too.
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